BEFORE THE LAW

BEFORE THE LAW stands a doorkeeper. To this door-keeper there comes a man from the country and prays for admittance to the Law. But the doorkeeper says that he cannot grant admittance at the moment. The man thinks it over and then asks if he will be allowed in later. "It is possible," says the doorkeeper, "but not at the moment." Since the gate stands open, as usual, and the doorkeeper steps to one side, the man stoops to peer through the gateway into the interior. Observing that, the doorkeeper laughs and says: "If you are so drawn to it, just try to go in despite my veto. But take note: I am powerful. And I am only the least of the door-keepers. From hall to hall there is one doorkeeper after another, each more powerful than the last. The third doorkeeper is already so terrible that even I cannot bear to look at him." These are difficulties the man from the country has not expected; the Law, he thinks, should surely be accessible at all times and to everyone, but as he now takes a closer look at the doorkeeper in his fur coat, with his big sharp nose and long, thin, black Tar-tar beard, he decides that it is better to wait until he gets permission to enter. The doorkeeper gives him a stool and lets him sit down at one side of the door. There he sits for days and years. He makes many at-tempts to be admitted, and wearies the doorkeeper by his importunity. The doorkeeper frequently has little interviews with him, asking him questions about his home and many other things, but the questions are put indifferently, as great lords put them, and always finish with the statement that he cannot be let in yet. The man, who has furnished himself with many things for his journey, sacrifices all he has, however valuable, to bribe the doorkeeper. The doorkeeper accepts every- thing, but always with the remark: "I am only taking it to keep you from thinking you have omitted any- thing." During these many years the man fixes his at-tention almost continuously on the doorkeeper. He for- gets the other doorkeepers, and this first one seems to him the sole obstacle preventing access to the Law. He curses his bad luck, in his early years boldly and loudly, later, as he grows old, he only grumbles to himself. He becomes childish, and since in his yearlong contempla-tion of the doorkeeper he has come to know even the fleas in his fur collar, he begs the fleas as well to help him and to change the doorkeeper's mind. At length his eyesight begins to fail, and he does not know whether the world is really darker or whether his eyes are only deceiving him. Yet in his darkness he is now aware t of a radiance that streams inextinguishably from the gateway of the Law. Now he has not very long to live. Before he dies, all his experiences in these long years gather themselves in his head to one point, a ques-tion he has not yet asked the doorkeeper. He waves him nearer, since he can no longer raise his stiffening body. The doorkeeper has to bend low towards him, for the difference in height between them has altered much to the man's disadvantage. "What do you want to know now?" asks the doorkeeper; "you are insati-able." "Everyone strives to reach the Law," says the man, "so how does it happen that for all these many years no one but myself has ever begged for admit-tance?" The doorkeeper recognizes that the man has reached his end, and to let his failing senses catch the words roars in his ear: "No one else could ever be admitted here, since this gate was made only for you. I am now going to shut it."

by FRANZ KAFKA

*** for my reading pleasure. off to class!!

I Think I Must Be Taking A Break

I didn't realize it had been quite long since I had started with my semester break. Have been busy with not sure what but I will be posted again soon ( I think). Seem to be taking a break!!!

Hope all is well with everyone.!

Salam Aidilfitri

I hope it's not too late to wish all of my muslim friends "Salam Aidilfitri Dan Maaf Zahir Batin". I was really happy during the celebration!! How about uol??!! I hope uol feel the same!! Many thanks for those who had sent me the e-card through my mail. I never expect that from you.!! You fellows are great!!! SALAM AIDILFITRI TO ALL OF YOU!!!

bee-zee period!!

hye, everybody..i'm quite busy at the moment. Managed to help my hubby with his income tax thingy.. feel relief after it has finished!!! and also busy 'managing' my two daughters. I have a few 'abondened projects' to finish and I don't know whether I could finished it off (before my semester break ends and I have to go through 'tough time' for once again....). Come to think of it sometimes I feel I really want to quit my studies (and of course the other side of me would say NO!!!) but because of 'mega' supports given by my hubby I still go on with it. Thanks dear for all of your SUPPORTS!!! One thing for sure i'll come back with my finished projects sooner. Till then, many thanx to everybody for stopping by..

Exam Week!!

Dear Friends n Viewers,

I have to 'stay away' from my so-called 'home' at the moment. I'll be back once I've finished my exam. Really a tough time for me..but I have to admit one thing, this is part of my journey in life. I cannot foresee anything else that would secure my life except to further my study. In the midst of the hard way suddenly I got inspired by my Mdm Farah while reading her "poem" in her blog. I am really grateful that I've been surrounded by successful people (you know who you are!!). Thanks again to my hubby who is always be my "heart companion" through my good and bad times. To all my friends (be it bloggers or non-bloggers) thanks also to all of you. Myself also being inspired by all of you!! Really!! Below is my exam schedule :

1) Tuesday (28/4/2009)
2.15 p.m-5.15 p.m
LAW 435 (Torts 1)

2) Sunday (3/5/2009)
9.00 a.m-12 noon
LAW 481 (MLS 2)

3) Monday (10/5/2009)
2.15 p.m-5.15 p.m
LAW 437 (Consti 1)

Wish me luck then. Hope to see you all in the next entry. A lot of upcoming projects during semester break!!! Can't wait to finish my exam (although i'm not ready!!). Hu..hu..hu..